Mistakes

You make me want to live and without you I can't. You deserve so much better, I've said this all along; and sadly, now there's proof. The regret is eating me up inside like never before. I can't get this out of my mind. I've never kept anything from you and I don't want to start, but if I confess I know I'll lose you for good. I wouldn't have the audacity to beg you forgive me when it is no where near deserved. Every little thing you say to me brings me that much further down in my own guilt because i know that the truth is you should hate me and thinking of that hurts me so much more than i knew possible. You are so amazing to me and you've given up great girls for me while, unlike myself, they might actually deserve you. Ignorance is bliss, but lies and secrets have such short legs and this feels like it will haunt me for the rest of my life. If only we lived in a world where you could take back your mistakes.