Lost

Ive noticed myself living everyday just to get it over with; Clearly that would mean im not enjoying much about life. Ive never really wanted to move forward either. Could that mean im afraid of change? How can I be afraid of change when things could only get better, then again.. things only ever feel like theyre getting worse. I often find myself doing both: hating the past, not able to move forward; and missing what was, not able to go back. I'm forever stuck where I dont want to be and I need to learn a way out.