"I Hate You"

Not too long ago I thought I couldn't dislike you anymore than I already did. Clearly I'm not always right, nor was I right with that thought. I'm craving to blurt out three meaningful words, but I don't know if it would be true.. as much as I feel it is right now. I'm rarely sure enough to use the term 'hate' since it's used so frequent and carelessly, but I will say you are my greatest antipathy. I dont have the ignorance to say I dont care about you deeply.. but I truly wish I didn't care about you. I care about you, not wanting to.. however, I believe that you couldn't mind me suffering my entire life waiting for death. Thinking all this make's me find you even more selfish and ignorant than I already know you are. I don't want you in my life, it's already sucky without your help as well.