Theres nothing good about goodbye

There's nothing good about goodbye.. so why do i want to say goodbye to you? Im not sure really.. We have gotten in a few times like this. not exactly fights, but just.. moments of silence. I feel frusterated with you, not angry.. upset. im upset that were not like we use to be. When we had no problems. hardly anything in the world upsetted us or made us angry. If there was something bothering us we would handle it together, like besties do. We were happy and carefree.. things couldnt get better. Ive been gone, i know.. im sorry. But everytime i checked by id get upset with something little, something stupid.. just because it was different. I dont want to change and i dont want you to change, but is it even possible to do something about it? we tried.. u were you and i was me.. yet were like this again. i dont feel different about you..i dont think, and i hope you dont feel different about me.. Do you want us back to they way we use to be as bad as i do? ...i dont think its possible. What made us the way we were thats not here now? Who knows.. all i can say is of course i love you and of course im here for you, speaking or not.. that will never change, no matter how mad id get.. i can assure you. i wish we could just talk this out, but its not that simple.. talking wont do much. i wish we were talking yet i dont. I would if i knew this wouldnt keep happening, but it has been time after time.. For once i dont have a solution, i dont know what to do so ill write this and maybe you can think of something..