Helpless

I hurt very badly right now and I'm helpless to this as well. I crave to try and solve my problem like I always do, But I cant.. out of sincerety for another, I can't bring up this matter. It breaks my heart for you to doubt me. It breaks my heart for you to betray what you portray. It breaks my heart that you mean so much to me and I feel that you just dont care. Do you even understand who I am, how I feel, what I mean? I thought you knew me as well as I of you, but instead you follow ignorance for your own bliss. I wish you knew, I wish you could see, I wish I could do something, but for you.. i am helpless.

Trapped emotions

Do you know what it's like to always have nowhere to go, no place to think or be alone? Through my eyes that feels like a requirement for each percent of the human race. You can't understand that I need my time alone, time without having to ignore the suffocation and irritation. I'm sick of holding my breath for everyone so I won't upset them or start another fight, but you don't even acknowledge my hardly bearable stress. You just keep increasing the timer so I have to hold my breath longer, while each second feels longer than the last and each breath missed hurts that much more. Im only human and I wish you would think about that instead of scolding at me for not being more.