Unmutual

I hate being loved. It's such an odd thing to hear someone say, but its exactly how I feel. I can't stand being so important to someone. Everyone likes me more than I even like myself, not that I'm sure as to why. I guess most people feel better about themselves when they're accepted by others, and I can understand that.. but, what happens when you don't like everyone else too, when things aren't mutual? People love me - I hate people... Yeah, its great. And there's also the enjoyment of turning down all the silly people who claim to have fallen in love with me. I'm just kidding, its not fun at all. I may sound hateful, but that's not all true. I have horrible guilt when someone is undeservedly hurt, especially when it's my fault, but what other choice do I have? Would it be better to pretend that I enjoy some one's presence when, in fact, it bothers me? Then it ends up that they like me more. What do I do then?