Self Conflict

I feel so lost right now, so confused ...as the cuts only get deeper and the tears that much more acidic, I don't know what to do with myself. More scars, physical and mental; This is what I've done with my life, crying every step of the way.

You idiot, you pathetic moron! All that people have done for you, all that has been given up for you, your putting it all to waste; How can you be so self centered and ungracious? How can you even live with yourself?

...I can't; I can't live like this. I need help, I know. Why must I be stuck here. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry... just please, please stop saving me.